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Week 22 a

So…using my negatives for positives! Excellent, usage of finding the silver lining in all.

This week I have been thrown off track quite a bit. Working in family business we have been extremely busy and blessed these past two weeks. Yet in the middle of it having to slow down. I had an unexpected trip to the midwife due to consistent contractions mid week. She said I must learn to relax, and make my surroundings calmer. Taking advantage of finding silence gas been beneficial. The world is full of distractions to keep us from being in silence and being able to ponder! it is not just for me to do this. But i must do this to give the nurturing to the baby he needs. If God wants him here early he will be. But I do not want to contribute because I was too stubborn or careless in thought and action to do what I knew and guided in instruction to do.
Kind of same thing with learning these new life changing skills. To implement and continue in thought and action to get beneficial results for not just myself but those in my family and then spread out to those I encounter in life. I have a responsibility, what I am going to do about it?!


Apparently I have been continuing the coarse when I have been removed. Just found out there was an assignment I must have missed while I was in the hospital for a week.  I have reached out for help in catching up…yet this has been the first time someone has contacted me regarding my status.

Am I upset, yes. With myself. I am discouraged with the team to a point but it lies upon my shoulders of responsibility.

So I have a decision to make. Continue on my own (which for the past 5 weeks I have done unknowingly), or quit!

It is too ingrained in me to not continue with the conquest I have set out to accomplish. Yet, old blueprint is still too easy to access.

Thanks for your time…

Week 22

Emotions emotions emotions!

As people there are many emotions that we experience, for a multitude of reasons!

Funny and weird as it sounds, most of my life I have had few emotions. Weird uh?! I thought that I had many and was a very expressive person. I was. Yet, as I went through an extremely difficult and painful time in my life, my divorce, God showed me that most of my emotions came out in the form of anger. Most people would never have guessed that about me, until…it got to an explosive moment, then it was ugly for all around me and I would feel disgusted with myself many apologies and persistence to not repeat, unfortunately it was a cycle I was in for years.

Through this time in my life almost five years ago to date, my eyes were opened. I had to learn how to express emotions in the manner in which I meant. In this process I have slowly learned to manage my emotions. Within this past year and half I haven’t wanted to manage emotions I have wanted to control what goes on within myself to the enth degree. So only through consistent prayer, studying what God says my character traits ought to be, refocusing and getting on track over again I have began to learn this process. Yes it is a learned trait!

So this chapter 13 Mastering emotions is an extended learning curve and tools in my arsenal that God has provided on a less harsher note than I have provided or allowed for myself.

Week 21

Do it Now!
I am what I will to be!
Substitution in thoughts!

Plugging along…

Learning to incorporate in REAL life circumstances,  not just in theory from reading and applying momentarily. Things to master one moment at a time of everyday.

Learning to face things one step at a time. Refocusing that I am only doing one thing at a time anyway. Past I have thought I was multi tasking, finding I was circling my tail more than accomplishing. Using my mind to focus on what is at hand, which in actuality I was doing anyway. But my thoughts were NOT in line with my actions. (As a Mom and woman, I still multi task) however with my mind being more diligent on the tasks I am performing…greater sense of peace and production! Definitely glad this was pointed out to me, even with it being a bite in the BUTT!

Admitting failures is not pleasant.  But necessary! In order to reevaluate and change toward a goal and desire I seek.

Thank you Lord for providing MKMMA

Week 20

Do it now! Do it now! Do it now!

Live today as if it is your last! (Yet figure out to be wise enough to prepare for tomorrow and the future)

What are you pretending not to know?!?

These three things are confronting on many levels. You may want to do things now and have to discern if now is actually the time. Or if a Mom and wife, go through the ranks of your husband and now may not be the time for him. So to learn how to live and practice what is in your own domain of now.

Living today as if it is your last. Very profound. This one is a practice of diligence, forgiveness and moving out of your comfort. Most days are applicable, however, victory over the days that you get stuck in falling into old blueprint or “flesh”, require more prayer and dedication to the ultimate purpose and goal.

What am I pretending not to know? Still figuring out the levels of this question. However, if looking at most situations and circumstances…there is usually a small portion that you can chisel away to conquer the whole at hand. Facing and admitting that and pushing through the resistance of facing yourself is pertinent.

I have always been a good listener. There is always room for improvement. I have been able to hear deeper and not take offense by removing my own opinion. Not to say my opinion doesn’t pop up in my head or sometimes start to roll off my tongue, but I am able to stop, and think, and listen without thinking I must interject. I have noticed for myself that I am less at odds with myself, by listening more, logically taking thoughts captive. I am more comfortable with myself in thought and action, feeling less of the need to defend. I am processing and responding over reacting. When I do catch a reaction I am quicker stop. Praise The Lord!

I had the pleasure to hang out with some people I have known for 20+ years. Haven’t always been in the focal point of my life but I can’t imagine them not falling in and out of touch with them over the years …if you know what I mean?! The Mom of the girls I grew up with has unfortunately lost a daughter several years ago, and both living daughters have a blood clotting disorder. So any change in their health, hormones, etc…is a grave concern. Listening to her today talk and watching her with her daughters and grandchildren, she has grasped these three things listed above, with such charisma and passion. She knows that at any moment of any day could be the last as her family knows it with her girls. How I admire how she has taken advantage of her life with these challenges. Yet, I keep thinking, I do not want something so grave to enter my life to finally grasp and take hold dearly to move with such passion. However, I still feel a blockage in my life to have this freedom. So I lift it up in prayer and seek what it is I must do and know next or even if it is as simple (not easy) as Do it Now, regardless of resistance and I will grow into this freedom…

Week 19

So as I am reading my MKMMA material (refocusing & and catching up some), my eyes have been opened in a new light. Am I proud of what I must confess, no and yes. No on the aspect that I need to confess I have been selfish. How you say…because I have not been diligent in responding and encouraging others. So for that I ask forgiveness. On the other hand, maybe proud is NOT the proper word. Glad, yes I am glad my eyes have become open to this. Yet I still struggle. Why? I struggle with my encouragement being of an importance.

Yes, I have been reading that no one is, was or will be as I am. Yes I have known and read that and am grateful in the Bible God’s word tells me how I am of importance for Him to send His Son to die for my transgressions and wash me white as snow!

It is not a process that I believe will automatically take hold and never be concerned with again. Yet in this process I do believe there are stages of progression to have the knowledge and the proper confidence in this knowledge, turning it into wisdom to not be a battle. But stepping stones of my own testimony, which Lord willing I will have the opportunity to glorify God when and if He chooses. If nothing else it will be for my own praises to Him from where I have come.

I have easily fallen into becoming a hermit of some sort over the years. Easy to do when you are raising children and learning your position of a wife and mother. Easy to fall into ruts and a broken record.

This coarse as I have mentioned before is a transformation to help realign and refocus who you were created to be. I haven’t figured out how to go about getting the desired results in aspects of my life, but I have and am in the process of breaking old habits that have given me results I haven’t desired and didn’t intentionally seek to begin with. Not that I don’t know the road I am headed on but there are still many trial and errors, mainly in thinking, to acquire results and characteristics I desire. So praise God for the old man dying. Praise Him for the transition that I am in (on a fleshly level I feel stuck) but am accepting and working through that!

And to others in the class great work on working on you to be a better you and be an example most don’t even know they need!